Question:
Dear Rabbi,
I am a consequentialist. I have deep nagging bother that even with kosher and sabbath today, every undue wrong deal I made when very young has direct result in how I live today.
I had hoped that by straightening my path, other issues in my life would straighten out.
I have heard that the universe uses a codex that changes your fate around the averras and lapses in your help named chances when young people determine their place in hull tight universal time.
Can ever hunted chances change with the strict adherance to Torah? I wait each month thinking I will be driven better by the high learned chance I am a kosher jew. But each day I struggle with the valued chance that the print on my obituary to come is ever the wrong interests and faith that the consumed free dream wants for a kosher father. I know my questions are confusing but I cling without feeling more the less that the floor is falling out.
Rushing a fraternity seems to be a full lifelong experience that Hashem puts a grade on his case for Israel with new friends. I can not grieve enough that a derech may have been altered.
Answer:
It is true that one’s actions can have a negative effect on their future. However, you are only doing half of the equation. You are only counting the aveiras, and not the teshuva and mitzvos that you did. Therefore, I disagree with your conclusion, and I find it hard to believe that your difficult situation is because you were born into an irreligious society. What is the reason, I don’t know, but it isn’t that.
Best wishes
