I ate bugs by accident. I have bottles of spices that are way too old and I’ve still been using them/allowing them to be used for cooking in my house. There were bugs and they got cooked together with the food and I ate them and when I realized I was literally horrified and nauseous and felt like I was going to throw up. I decided to throw away all my old bottles of spices and buy new ones. I’m very disturbed by what happened. I wish someone would hug me and tell me it’s okay.
Just because the bottles of spices were old does not automatically mean that there were bugs inside of them. It is only a possibility that they there infested. Besides, even if there were bugs inside of them, since they were cooked and the bugs disintegrated, the food was not treif. This does not mean that you should rely on this l’chatchila, but in retrospect, we can assume that it was alright.