I daven slow and need to skip certain parts by shachris only to keep pace with Charan over the year.Now I must say kadish yosom ,I feel I cannot be shliach tripper when skipping.Ithink I will say kaddish shachris only and lead services for mincha and maariv.Would this be disrespectful to parent memory.Please advise.
Hamakom Yinachem eschem , btoch shar aveilei Tzion v’Yerushalayim.
It is hard to give you a definitive answer to your question. On one hand it is good to daven slowly and with kavana, but on the other hand it is a big merit for your deceased parent. Therefore, the best thing is to find another place to daven. Or to look for other options, such as starting to daven earlier, and daven slowly until Yistabach, and from there it is not so much, and you will be able to manage. If this will not work for you, then I would advise you to speak to a Rov in person about your situation, as there can be a number of factors that can change things. Another factor to consider is to at least start davening for the amud from Ashrei Uva LeZion, however this should also be discussed with your Rov in person.